Lots of answers please......WHAT DO YOU THINK?

On the twenty fifth of last mont, I attempted suicide...my best friend was the one who saved my life by calling Poison Control and waking up roomate to make sure I got to the hospital. He had to sit awake through most of the night not knowing whether I would live or die. He was very hurt and is blaming himself because he feels like he failed me. We talked the day after, and he said that he was just really hurt and that time would heal all wounds. About a week and half after he said that for now he deosnt have what it takes to love me because he has given me all he has and doesnt want to go through that kind of pain again. He said that there is a possibility that we will still be friends in the fall, but that a lot of that depends on me getting better for me. I am finding positive ways to cope and am in some long-term counseling. I want to enjoy life and be able to be the kind of friend that others are to me. I care so much about Robert, and the thought of losing him for hurts